Desperate Faith
I’ve been praying about multiple things lately, that have really been weighing me down. It’s honestly taking everything I have, to not lose my faith.
As I was pondering what exactly to write about this week, I asked God (as I always do) what He wanted me to share. I knew that He was leading me to share about faith. (God, but why would you have me write about something, that I’m struggling with myself???)
My faith has been tested. I mean really tested lately. My talks with God have been sounding something like this...
“God, if you don’t come through, I don’t know what I’m going to do.”
I’ve even found myself literally crying, and yelling out to God for help. Sometimes, it seems like you’re doing all you know how to do, but things seem to be getting worse, instead of better.
For all of the things that I’ve been praying about lately, I don’t see a solution. Every possible solution that I thought would work, has not worked.
I’ve reached the point of DESPERATION! I’m desperately trying to stay encouraged. I’m desperately trying to hold on to God’s promises, and I’m desperately trying to hold on to my faith.
I’m not sure how many people resonate with my truth today, but this is a very difficult place to be in. As I began to write this blog post, I came to a stopping point, and I felt stuck with what else to say.
As I paused to think, my phone rang. It was a close friend of mine. As we talked, we began to swap stories about the issues we were both facing. As I explained my situation, I also shared that I was in the middle of trying to finish up my next blog post, but I wasn’t quite sure what else God wanted me to say.
I remembered something that I had wrote down in my notes, from a sermon I had listened to the other day. What I wrote down the other day was this…
“Build confidence in the Lord. The enemy wants to take us out of faith.”
I went on to tell my friend about this, and how important it is for us to just sit and think about ALL the times God has brought us out before, and ALL the times God has made a way before. I told her that life has a way of knocking us down, and we can seem to forget ALL the things God has done for us in the past. I went on to say, “God didn’t bring me THIS FAR to leave me.”
As I was speaking, I thought I was encouraging her. Little did I know, I was really encouraging myself. I realized that the heaviness I felt before the phone rang, was gone.
A few minutes later, she unknowingly started to speak life over her own situation, and immediately realized that she had just encouraged herself as well. She said, “I don’t know if I just helped you at all, but I definitely just helped myself!” (I mean, how do you thank yourself for your own advice?!? LOL)
The crazy thing is, God had us speak to one another, not to necessarily encourage each other, but to teach us what it truly meant, to encourage ourselves in the Lord.
Man, we laughed so hard! God is so funny that way. The moral of my story isn’t about relationships, or having a friend to swap your stories with. As I told you in Purpose and Relationships, relationships are important, but this isn’t about that.
This is about building up your faith, and choosing to believe that God is the same yesterday, today and forever. I believe there was power in speaking over my situation out loud. The enemy wants us to stay silent, and take us out of faith. Like our Heavenly Father, we have the power to speak those things that be not, as though they were. (Romans 4:17)
So, if like me, you’ve been feeling weighed down, I encourage you to speak life over your situation. Look back over your own life. Get a pen, and paper if you have to, so you can write it down. Remember every time you were worried about something, and God came through.
As you begin to reminisce, thankfulness will begin to rise in your spirit. You will know, that the same God that saved you before, the same God that healed you before, the same God that made a way, when a way seemed impossible before, WILL DO IT AGAIN!
“I don’t know how God is going to work things out yet for me. All I know is that HE WILL!
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Today’s Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for my life. I thank you that even when times get hard, that you are here with me. I am grateful that you promised to never leave, or forsake me. I thank you for all the many times that you have made a way for me before. I know that nothing in my life has taken you by surprise. I praise you in advance, because you already had the solution, long before I knew there was a problem. You are worthy to be praised. I pray that you continue to give me strength, as I grow closer, and closer to you. In Jesus Name. Amen.
Today’s Reading: I Samuel 30:6; 2 Corinthians 4:13; Proverbs 18:21
I Samuel 30:6 (NKJV) “Now David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the LORD his God.”
2 Corinthians 4:13 (KJV) “We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;”
Proverbs 18:21 (NKJV) “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.”
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